My Journey to Healing, as a spouse of a recovering Porn addict.

Friday, November 9, 2012


So on Facebook I am doing what it seems like most people are doing and putting up a grateful post everyday.  It has been a rough last month so I was hoping that it would help.  It has, a lot.  So I thought I would do more here.

I am grateful for my children.  Each and every one of the three of them has a complete different personality and attitude about them.  They are each individuals and have each taught me so much.

For my mom.  We have had our struggles and differences, but no matter what she is always there.  I am grateful for all the ways that I swore I would never be like her, and yet here I am in so many ways doing some of the same things.  I do them because now I can see why she did them.  Even though we HATED it.  They were good or I wouldn't be doing them.

My dad.  My dad has had so many issues in his health.  Through most of them especially through the last few years he has laughed about them.  Not because they are funny, and not because he is laughing to bury the seriousness of them.  But because Anger doesn't change it for the better, it just makes it worse because it gets you down and keeps you down.  Laughing about it helps to keep you up and be more positive.  Keeps you going in a good direction, helps you to see and feel the spirit.  Something I need to be more like.

MY siblings.  They are each wonderful in their own way.  We may get mad at each other, but again if one of us needs something someone is always there.  I love that my brother is a nurse and I can call him when I need.  I didn't realize how much I called him until he left to Afghanistan with the Air Force and I couldn't just pick up the phone and ask him a question about my kids.

I am grateful for my husband and the changes he has made, and that we are making together.

For the addiction recovery program.  I love this program and think everyone should go through it!

For the ladies that come to our group.  They are awesome.  I am so glad I am not alone in our group anymore.  I was alone for so long.  It is wonderful to see their faces each week.

For the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

For His Atonement.

For Forgiveness.

For Love.


My Father in Heaven and His patience with me.

For the Spirit.

For Guidance and direction of my Heavenly Father through the Spirit.

For my right to vote.

For the women who fought for my right to vote.

For my wonderful friend Kym.  We have been email friends for going on 7 years now.  We started because we met on an online forum for those suffering with  Postpartum Depression and have been friends since.  We are in separate parts of the country, but we still email almost daily for a long time each day.  There have been many times where I don't know what I would have done without her.

I am grateful for my PPD that I suffered 3 times in varying degrees.  I learned so much through my experiences.  I met some lifelong friends also.

I am grateful my husband has a job.  He doesnt make enough to support us, but at least he has a job that he works at.  And soon he will have a different, better job that will provide for us.

I am grateful for the friends and family that I have.  Most of them are wonderful :) The ones that arent so much are still in their own way and through them we still learn.

As much as my landlady annoys me and the rules of this place drive me batty, I still am grateful for her, and for the apartment we have to live in that the rent on it fluctuates as our income does.

For the Prophet Joseph Smith and his determination, and his Spirit.

For President Hinckley (who is now passed on) He was the first Prophet I truly knew and he was a wonderful and inspiring man.

For President Monson whom I have also grown to love.

For our current Quorum of the 12 Apostles.  I Love listening to them in Conference   I love some more than others but they all carry true messages to us from our Heavenly Father.

For the Bible and it's companion Scripture, The Book of Mormon.

For the Ensign Magazines, for The Friend and the New Era.  For the Doctrine and Covenants.

For DoTerra Essential oils.  I didnt get into the program to make lots of money selling them to people.  I got into it to heal my family and to learn and grow.  Anything else that comes from it is a side benefit.  The last year using them have provided my family with lots of healing without all the negative reactions of western medicine.

I am grateful too though for Western Medicine, with it's drawbacks it still does have benefits.

I am grateful for my current doctor, Dr. Wolfe.  She is fantastic.  I love that she doesnt be little me because I dont always take her persctiptions and tell her it is because I am going to use oils, or homeopathics.  Or be little me when I pass over a vaccine (though we still have done most of them)  She has helped us in so many ways, listened to me and told me I was not crazy.  Helped us fight for the diagnosis of Aspergers, and helped us fight for help for my son.

I am grateful for our diagnosing doctor, Dr. Cook who also took us seriously.

For the therapists we have had.

For Early intervention who started with us when he was 20 months old.

For my sons school (mainstream elementary)  For the help they have given him to meet his goals.  Everyone over there it seems has been involved. including the wonderful office manager.

For his wonderful therapists over at his school.

For the lady that runs the family recourse center at his school.

For those who finally listened to me and gave me the information I needed to get my son Gluten Free lunches at school.

For those who have helped us adjust to a GF diet.

For the Military service members past and present.  I have many family members and friends currently serving or who have served. Including my husband.

I am grateful for those in our community who see him in uniform and thank him, we are in a community who detests the military, so it is nice to hear people thank him.

I could go on a little more but I will stop boring you and stop driving my daughter nuts because it is past 9 am when they are allowed to get on the computer and here I still sit :)

1 comment:

  1. Excellent list of gratitude! It does make you feel better. I have been blogging a gratitude journal and it's been helping me see all of my daily blessings. I hope to keep doing it. There are so many things to be grateful for.

    I am adjusting to a GF diet as well. It's hard, but I am beginning to notice improvement in my health.

    Thanks for your light in my life through what you share:)