Wednesday, May 30, 2012
So last night we were talking. Today because of what we were talking about last night and the way that it went I feel like it is all my fault. I feel inadequate and worthless. I feel like I never will be what he wants me to be and frankly I do not know if I ever do. I'm tired of not being enough. He does thank me for things like work done around here, things done with the kids and he is appreciative of that, but then since I am not enough in other areas it takes away from everything else. Why do I feel like it is all my fault? Today is a hard day. a very hard one. Need to find something to pick me up. I can not let it drag me down.